Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Announcement

One thing I’ve always hated are the obligatory “sorry I haven’t posted in a while” posts that every sporadic blog seems to have. This won’t be one of them.

There comes a point in your life where you realize the limits of your talent. God gives talent, but he can also give us the perception to see the limit of that talent. One day, you wake up and realize that limit. It can keep you from frustration and spinning your wheels fruitlessly, but it can also be a very hard thing to accept.

For a very long time, I wanted nothing more than to be a writer. This blog was one of the ways I tried to follow that. But simply put, I’m tired of slamming my head up against the wall and getting nowhere. There’s something to be said for perseverance, but there’s also something to be said for knowing when to pack it in.

I don’t feel that in the long run, I can keep this blog up with the sort of quality I want from it. A lot of that is just realizing the limits of my own talent. Some of it is personal/family-related, but ultimately I’d rather do no blog at all than a poor one. This isn’t spur-of-the-moment, and I’ve taken the time to think it over. But I’m tired of trying to mold my life on a dream that isn’t going to happen. Too much frustration, too much mediocrity, and too much time put into it all. My family deserves more than that, and maybe in the end, I do, too.

I’ll be doing some articles up through Gen Con Indy, in large part because I have a number of obligations I need to meet, including another year of liveblogging Gen Con (I have to think that will continue in some form, somewhere, for a while yet). Once that’s over, I’ll either be stepping aside or fading into the background, possibly as a minor contributor with another blogger taking over day-to-day things. I still plan to be involved in a few online communities, as well as with RPG Circus, so that won’t stop. There may be other projects, but I don’t just don’t know.

We still have a while before the road ends, but I wanted to tell you now. Thanks for reading, and I hope you join me for the rest of the trip, wherever that leads. So many of you have been so kind, I can’t begin to thank you enough for what your words of encouragement have meant. I wish that alone was enough to give you quality content, but at the end of the day, it just isn’t there.

33 comments:

Mad Brew said...

I've always considered your blog to have some of the better content out there, so I'm sorry to see that going away. Glad to hear you're stilling doing RPG Circus though.

However, I totally understand your position, as a fellow Hoosier blogger and aspiring writer with family commitments.

Anyways, thanks for the good stuff you've already committed to the blogosphere and good luck on your future endeavors (and if you ever want some space to throw some articles down upon, I'd be more than happy to oblige).

Aaron said...

"[...] too much mediocrity, [...]"

Not that I have seen. You are too hard on yourself. But I understand that. There have been times that I looked at things that I've posted to my own weblog, and thought: "Jeez, that's AWFUL... what was I smoking?"

Thank you very much for those things that you have shared with us. Perhaps the understanding that we have very much appreciated the time that you have given to us will lessen the sting.

Fred Hicks (Evil Hat Productions) said...

If your blog is not making you happy, you absolutely should end it.

All the same, thanks for providing a good platform for talking about games and a good blog for the rest of us to read. It was appreciated. :)

Narf the Mouse said...

Your has been one of the few blogs I read consistently. It will be missed.

Joseph said...

I hope you will reconsider.

Even occasional posts are better than nothing. Post when you have something to share, but don't feel obligated to do so.

Stuart said...

Sorry to hear you're not having fun with your blog. Hopefully at some point you'll start up an RPG Blog III.

Zachary The First said...

Thanks for the kind words. As I said, I may just look to add a majority partner, so to speak, or to merge with another site. We'll see.

Zzarchov said...

For what it's worth I think your talent is above mediocre and I would say you're daft, but I have a feeling when you say you want to be a writer you don't mean a good writer who pulls in a middle class paycheck writing Space Wars Trek #245 "assault on gobbleygook 5" but one of the all time greats remembered a hundred years on. Those types of writers tend to have poor family relationships and I can't fault you for wanting to spend time on what matters most to you.

I hope you do well in whatever you do pursue.

Tenkar said...

The number of blogs left that I follow that were here this time last year... is getting damn small.

Your words will be missed... and they are FAR from mediocre.

Best of luck where ever this takes you.

Grayson Davis said...

I'm a fairly new reader but I'm sorry to see you go. Good luck.

mksiebler said...

For what it's worth, I've always enjoyed your writing, and would be sorry to see your blog end...

David said...

I've enjoyed reading your blog, but you should also enjoy writing it. If you don't, we'll just have to make do.

Stargazer said...

I agree with what has been said so far. Your blog always has above average content and you have always been a blogger I was looking up to. It makes me sad hearing that you want to stop blogging, but I can fully understand where you're coming from.

Adding a partner is probably a good idea and I am glad you will still be part of RPG Circus.

Thanks for all the great content you provided us with! RPG Blog II will definitely be missed.

On a more personal note: I am looking forward to staying with you and your family on GenCon. Perhaps I can use my stay to convince you to reconsider closing the blog. ;)

Ryan said...

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Norman Harman said...

More of what everyone else is saying.

My humble suggestion: Take a break, come back (maybe to a new blog), post no more than 1/week (or whenever you have the urge), don't stress over quality or quantity. It's ok to blog even if it's no longer your life passion/goal.

satyre said...

Best of luck with your endeavours and look forward to what's coming.

Rob Lang said...

Rather than be all morbid and tearful, I'm going to celebrate all the joy you've brought us over the years.

Your light hearted writing and insightful thoughts on the RPG hobby have been insightful.

Without you, there would not be a Free RPG Blog. If you ever fancy dipping a toe and review something free as a guest, let me know - I'd be honoured.

Dane of War said...

As Vader once said: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Zach, you have consistently put out one of the most entertaining RPG blogs on the net.

I understand how you feel, though - so if you need to take a step back, do so. We'll be here when you return.

Richard Iorio II said...

I totally understand where you are coming from. Still, your blog is one of the few I found myself following because I enjoyed it. You will be missed, but I am glad you are sticking around until the end of summer.

Sean said...

Let me add my voice to those celebrating your blog. Yours has always been one of the top five blogs I've followed. The 'always' part is more impressive then the 'top five' part, as other blogs have shot up and slipped down the pole of my personal tastes.

I'm not going to suggest that I know what you should do, and I know you've had your doubts about your writing before, but I'm confident that your obsessions for gaming and writing will keep you around in some format or another for a long time.

Good luck, (and I know I should say this more often), and thanks for the RPG Blog II!

A.L. said...

New reader as well, but I've thought your writing was anything but mediocre. Still, throwing my hat in with the "you gotta do what you gotta do" crowd.

Good luck in your future endeavors, whatever they may be.

Martin Ralya said...

Thank you for everything you've done and written here, Zach! You're one of the best RPG bloggers around, and your voice here will be missed. This is never an easy decision to make.

As an aside, you've got mail. :-)

Vincent Diakuw said...

I've always enjoyed your blog as it is, but if you feel you aren't meeting your own standard for it, please pick up blogging for only your own satisfaction here, or on a new blog.

I've never thought that bloggers owe their readers anything, and if you need a reboot to start blogging just for the fun of it, don't worry... we'll be around ;)

clash bowley said...

Jerk! How dare you! Stay here and entertain me! :D

Zachary - I love your blog. I go here every day to see what's up. I read everything. Like most writers, you are looking too harshly on what you do. Be that as it may, do what you gotta do, my friend. I've got your back, whatever way you go.

-clash

Doug Wall said...

You will definitely be missed. RPG Blog II is dead! Long Live RPG Blog III!

John Fiala said...

I pretty much agree with the other commenters. Thanks for writing such interesting stuff!

sirlarkins said...

"...post no more than 1/week (or whenever you have the urge), don't stress over quality or quantity. It's ok to blog even if it's no longer your life passion/goal."

QFT.

I've never looked at my as anything other than a place to share my thoughts. If other people get something out of it, great. But I'd probably keep blogging even if I had zero followers and never got any comments. It's just a great way to organize my thoughts.

Then again, burn-out happens. I hope you keep the blog up and feel free to return to it if you're ever feeling rejuvenated. And even if you never return, thanks for all the awesome posts!

James V said...

Say it ain't so!

I too hope you find enough joy in the blogging game to keep posting, even if it's less frequent than now. If not, I look forward to more RPG circus and hopefully the GenCon liveblog.

anarchist said...

That's sad to hear.

However - how many creative writing courses have you done?

david said...

Sorry to hear your winding things down. I enjoyed all of your postings. I'm glad your remaining somewhat tied to doing rpg work.

appreciate the effort i know its a lot of work.

-david
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http://www.d4d6d8d10d12d20.com - A Game Blog

Andreas Davour said...

Do what is fun. That's why we are here.

I had a blog burn out a while ago, and I got the advice to scale back. Take a breather, and it might actually be fun again.

Thanks for much fun, and well written posts. I'd love more of them, but I'm very happy for what we've gotten.

See you at the Circus!

mthomas768 said...

Very sorry to see you leaving the blogging world Zachary, but if youre heart's not in it, writing can be terribly frustrating. I'll definitely be missing your blog.

If you ever feel the need to write something I'd be happy to offer my humble blog as a venue.

Alex J. Burtness said...

Thanks for providing us with all of the great content! I'll be sad to see it go!

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