For many of us, this time of year is a time of hope, of renewal, and of goodwill towards our fellow men. Unfortunately, when it comes to our gaming group, it's very much a season of frustration.
This past Friday was another example of mass cancellations/withdrawals in regards to our Pathfinder camapaign. It's now been over a month since we actually ran a game. My own part in this is not proud; real life came up, and I confess I was a cancellation in the past. I wasn't happy about it, though, and I was hoping to get to play this Friday. It didn't happen, and I doubt we'll meet over the holidays, which means I have to look towards January before our gaming group meets back up.
It isn't my first time being part of an unstable gaming group; life comes up, and that's how it is. This campaign, however, isn't the sort that can be addressed by a West Marches-style sandboxer, or a number of one-shot side quests. It has a more unified running theme, and I fear we're just killing it.
Our Game Master has really undertaken a lot of work with this campaign, and I feel bad for him, plain and simple. I've been in that chair, and it's not a fun feeling to see something you worked so hard on apparently discarded.
This past weekend, I took time off of my normal scouring of the gaming boards to think about things. I didn't update here, I didn't read more of BASH! Ultimate Edition (even though I really wanted to), and just thought about gaming. I came to the conclusion I've still got the fire for it, but I need to figure out some way to better balance it with my work, life, and family. Call it a New Year's resolution. It's the sort of thing that isn't fixed by cookie-cutter advice; I need to weigh things and figure out where it all comes into play. I need to talk to my GM, and see what he's feeling. We'll see where it all goes, but I hope we find a better way to go forward.